Renee Yohe

Q:i'm done fighting. i'm tired. I don't want to fight off these demons anymore. i'm so exhausted and I don't know what to do.

Anonymous

I get tired too, I get really tired. Sometimes I believe the lie that it would be better for everyone somehow if I just stopped, just slept, just was done. The thing I’ve discovered is that the tiredness, just like the moments of ecstasy, will pass. You won’t always feel like this, you wake up, you’ll be high again on this roller coaster we call life, and you’ll hit that low again, too. You just hold on and remind yourself the demons have a demon too, and they only win if you allow it. Don’t allow it.

I’ve been tired lately, I’ve felt perhaps one of the lowest of lows I’ve had in a very long time, which is why I think I needed to answer this… Think of the truth. Remember truth and that’s how you fight, even when you’re too tired. Sleep in a bit, read a book, sing a song that lifts you… drink too much coffee, smoke too many cigarettes, scream in your car, word vomit somewhere or on someone… you will be okay. And when that doesn’t matter enough, remember all the ones who will not be okay, perhaps ever, if you did quit. Sometimes that’s all that keeps us holding on, because let’s be honest, there are times when our very selves isn’t enough. That’s okay. Find whatever thing it is that matters most enough, and tie yourself to the ship. It will pass, it will pass…. it will pass, and you will look back one day and this too-tired moment will be just that, a moment. … and if you didn’t hold on you would never have known another moment, a beautiful one quite the opposite of this. Hold on love. You have a voice and a piece of a puzzle that needs you in it to make a whole picture, you are loved. Please stay.